The Preservation Instinct

Welcome to the chaotic and hard-flash reality of Sloane Schair, a doll navigating her transition through crazed dreams of cheap wine, crashed U-Hauls, and bisexual energy throughout NYC and beyond. Between dodging dangerous DL boys in dark parks and dealing with messy situationships, who freak out over her newfound feminine body, she’s learning the cost of refusing to play small and live as her true self. From the cracked, strained, yet homely sidewalks of Myrtle Avenue to the floor of the Latex Ball, this is your seat to a girl burning the traditional box to claim the joy she damn deserves.

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Column VIII: The Benefits of a Friend
Daniella Dean Daniella Dean

Column VIII: The Benefits of a Friend

From midnight message chaos to a sunlit rendezvous. A confusing commute to Penn Station brings a friend of Sloane into focus. This column discusses the study of unspoken subway tension, the heavy lifting of performative manhood, and a ruined ego.

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Column VII: Plug Gone Wild
Daniella Dean Daniella Dean

Column VII: Plug Gone Wild

Tracing the toxic allure of DL trades. Sloane breaks down the performative masculinity of an American man, the heaviness of the mental closet, and the bitter reality of being a kept secret in a pitch black room.

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Column VI: The Hot Train Express
Daniella Dean Daniella Dean

Column VI: The Hot Train Express

Transit hell at eighty miles an hour. While stranded on a grueling, un-air-conditioned Amtrak ride and venting to Sloane over FaceTime, Blossom finds unexpected salvation when a towering stranger with severe facial piercings asks for the only open seat.

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Column V: Her Last Walk of Shame
Daniella Dean Daniella Dean

Column V: Her Last Walk of Shame

Before a sweltering train ride, there was the Deep South. Sloane recounts Blossom’s shedding of their own religious expectations and the high school sweetheart facade. Moving forward into tracking their beautiful rebellion and ultimate revival into their queer identity.

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Column IV: The Summer Vacation Myth
Daniella Dean Daniella Dean

Column IV: The Summer Vacation Myth

Shattering the illusion of an idealistic getaway, this column tracks Sloane through the heavy humidity of the relentless city. Embracing herself in pavement heat, late-night chaos, and the raw instincts required to survive the horny summer.

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Column III: Sexting The City
Daniella Dean Daniella Dean

Column III: Sexting The City

In this installment, Sloane navigates the big move to modern day NYC. She has cultural critique on how we trade sincere life moments for the quick disengaged interactions on social media and with neighbors.

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Column II: The Second Breakup Along The Hudson
Daniella Dean Daniella Dean

Column II: The Second Breakup Along The Hudson

Sloane proves that survival in the world requires bold ambition. We continue to follow a beautifully choreographed dance of a young woman coming of age. She is heading to NYC for summer break so she must let go of everything that she wants but doesn’t need for her womanhood to evolve.

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Column I: Defying Reality
Daniella Dean Daniella Dean

Column I: Defying Reality

Meet Sloane Schair. She doesn't just enter a room, she commands as most dolls naturally do! She loves with precision and sharp pink skirts against the concrete of a hot NYC day. In a city where everyone is desperately paying the authenticity tax, Sloane shares her cinematic secrets while wearing vintage pants, resulting in her only currency left as spectacle.

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